Pivotal PET scan

They have us packed in like sardines at the radiology imaging waiting room. This will be my third PET scan here and the most nerve wracking. I went into the previous two with great naïveté. This time, the stakes are high.

I'm halfway through the carbo/taxol chemo, so it's time to see if it's working to shrink or get rid of the three small nodules of metastasized endometrial cancer in my lungs. If there are improvements, we'll continue the course with the remaining three sessions of carbo/taxol. If not, then it's back to ground zero and time to try something else.

What's worse is I know the technician will know exactly what's going on as soon as the scan is over, but she can't tell me. I'll have to wait until at least tomorrow to give my doctor time to sift through the papers on his desk to my results. I think I'll take an extra dose of Xanax tonight before bed.

Of course it's no fun that I haven't had anything to eat since midnight, I'm so tired it's all I could do not to fall asleep during the drive over, and I forgot the form with my oncologist's instructions, as well as my insurance card. And, I'll be radioactive until 6:00pm tonight from the contrast solution they inject in me one hour before the scan.

I just want a nap.